I thought a good first post would be exploring my sexual history, explaining more of what Im into, What Ive experienced and what I have yet to explore.
Though I am only 21 years old, I have had ample opportunity to explore my sexual desires. I’m known among my friends as the one who’s willing to try anything once, because lets face it. I am. I believe whole heartedly in exploring your fantasies in a safe controlled environment and getting to fulfill all of your desires. Typically I identify as a submissive. That is, by definition in the Collins English Dictionary: “inclined or ready to submit; unresistingly or humbly obedient.”. What that really means is I am usually the one doing the obeying, generally the dom tells me what to do and I do it. Or “suffer” the consequences (note the quotations around suffer…). I have also explored in gentle D/s, Bondage, BDSM, RolePlay, TPE and many other mediums of sex. Lets go through shall we?
Before I had even lost my virginity, I knew I was interested in some fetishes. I did not watch pornography. However I was a big fan of erotic literature. I knew the basics. So when I began to partake in sexual activity I had a slight idea of what I wanted. I wanted it rough. Not gentle and sweet like most girls. I wanted to be roughed around a bit. It was to my delight, that my boyfriend of the time was interested in some light BDSM. To him, that mostly consisted of my submission to humiliating acts (Pet Play, Bondage, Spanking). Nothing too serious or rough. From this (short) relationship, I decided that I wanted to have a little more fun and get into something a little more serious in the BDSM world.
My next boyfriend, was very much into D/s, rape play, spanking, bondage, humiliation and erotic asphyxiation. This relationship lasted three years so I knew that something had to be working for me. So the next time I got into a relationship we decided to take it up a few notches to a TPE.
A TPE is a Total Power Exchange. To be blunt, its the consensual act of giving up control to another person all of the time. Its like D/s (Domination/submission) but full time. To explain a little further we engaged in domestic discipline as well, which in our relationship was the act of punishment upon disobedience. Which meant corner time, privelage removal and mostly spanking. Sometimes bare hand, sometimes with implements. Which Im sure I will have the opportunity to post about in time. To some people this may sound crazy or sick. But, to be honest it was one of the best experiences of my life. My Dom took very good care of me, only did what he thought was best and we always had the power of the safe word. I never did anything I wasn’t comfortable with. He and I explored a lot of deeper fetishes, role plays and locations. Our favorite of which was the Daddy/daughter dynamic and the Teacher/student play. Also, we explored the concept of exhibitionism when we let a friend watch one of our role plays.
After he and I went our separate ways I got the opportunity to partake in a threesome with a girl friend of mine and a guy friend. It was an excellent experience, we engaged in BDSM play together, her and him being dominant and myself obviously being submissive.
After that, I was abstinent for nearly a year. I needed to take some time off from sex to explore who I was. I managed to keep myself away from the lifestyle for a year, until I met a new guy who I was (for the first time) entirely interested based on personality. Upon learning more about him, I found out he was a virgin, at first, a concern. Due to my obvious abundance of experience in the…not so vanilla. Before we got together, I laid out for him, the things I am interested in and he agreed to let me teach him how to be the dominant I need. So we have been exploring for the last few months. We’ve done a little rough stuff, some role play and we’re growing very quickly in our sexual rendez vous.
So, in short this blog will mostly contain musings of our relationship. Our sex, ponderings, advice and a lot of stories written by yours truly. I hope you find the time to give me some feed back. What would you like to read about? What questions do you have? What suggestions do you have? Let me know!